Do we really know what we want? or do we just follow what others want and say??
Now, im definetly confuse of what everythings. My dreams are scared me, maybe for the past October i fake a lot of smile, laugh and happiness in front of everybody but actually deep in my self i was crying. Basically this all happend bcuz of one reason which very simple but successly make me want to cry if i remember this fucking asshole shit reason.
Now, im definetly confuse of what everythings. My dreams are scared me, maybe for the past October i fake a lot of smile, laugh and happiness in front of everybody but actually deep in my self i was crying. Basically this all happend bcuz of one reason which very simple but successly make me want to cry if i remember this fucking asshole shit reason.
On the past 13 Oct, my school has a student exchange program to Japan and they open a register for anybody who wants to join this program, surely i took the form and filled it immediately when i arrived home. I prepared a lot of things bcuz i believe at least i can be the 15 candidate even im not really sure if i can go to Japan or nah. Then i told my sist and parents of course about wht will i do for the next 2 weeks, but for the fucking end when we must return the form i kept my form on my documentmap bcuz of i've no raport, family card and other requiretment. I dont whom i blame to but this things make me want to kill someone which i dont want to tell who.
This post i know surely will be wierd as fuck but i really need to write this, bcuz until now i dont want to call or to speak with my parents and eventhough i miss them. Well the last but not least i'd like to say thanks to Vina bcuz of her i know my real feelings. Someday i believe one of my dreams will come true, including going to Japan, and i'll proove all of them that i can stand by my own.
And for my lovely readers, i want to tell you all for keep on dreaming and try to make at least one of ypur dream come true. Dont be afraid and just follow ur heart and one day u will see all thoose fucking bitchies mouth will shut up and u stand up right in front of them an maybe u can put ur fucking fingers up to them. The point is u need to dare to dream and nake ur dreams come true with ur own effort of course.
