For you who have gone :
I miss you. I really do in the sense I never had you in real life, not even a second. I never felt your lips touch mine, or your heart beat loudly as I lay on your chest. These are things I've known I'll never be whole without you - things that leave me missing you. Missing the thought of what we could have been. Missing what we never were
You know what? You have made me lose half of my spirit, you have made me think I am worthless but it's okay, I completly understand the reason you are gone.
On the nights that I miss you the most, I will think about you. I will think all of you, from the times you said "apa kabar" to the times you left me
On the nights that I miss you the most, I will remind myself that whatever is happening right now, is supposed to be happening right now
On the nights that I miss you the most, I willl find my strength
I will feel
I will cry
I will scream
I will go to the laboratory doing another project
I will be out of breath
I will write a new narrative
I will find acceptance alongside hope
I will find my breathe
I will let myself be where I am - fully
I will remind myself that morning will be here soon and I will have come one more day closer to the nights where I no longer miss you
I miss you. I really do in the sense I never had you in real life, not even a second. I never felt your lips touch mine, or your heart beat loudly as I lay on your chest. These are things I've known I'll never be whole without you - things that leave me missing you. Missing the thought of what we could have been. Missing what we never were
You know what? You have made me lose half of my spirit, you have made me think I am worthless but it's okay, I completly understand the reason you are gone.
On the nights that I miss you the most, I will think about you. I will think all of you, from the times you said "apa kabar" to the times you left me
On the nights that I miss you the most, I will remind myself that whatever is happening right now, is supposed to be happening right now
On the nights that I miss you the most, I willl find my strength
I will feel
I will cry
I will scream
I will go to the laboratory doing another project
I will be out of breath
I will write a new narrative
I will find acceptance alongside hope
I will find my breathe
I will let myself be where I am - fully
I will remind myself that morning will be here soon and I will have come one more day closer to the nights where I no longer miss you
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