Sometimes i feel like o want to break all the rules just for one day but i really know that's too impossible. Im sure every teenagers pernah berada dimasa kayak apa yang aku rasain, masa dengan tingkat kebosanan paling akut, masa where we couldn't do what exactly we want bcuz some people dont allow us to do that or that. For fuckin hell that's really suck, being a teenager sometimes make me kinda crazy. I feel like im in the prison, this world has too much rules.
Kadang aku merasa kenapa si harus diatur-atur kayak anak kecil?? Cmon im 16 years old, and im not a kid so i think i know wut i do and i know the consequences. Sometimes i feel gak nyaman aja if someone terlalu over-worried with me, it looks like they think im a 6 years old girl, for example my sist wants me to send her messages everywhere i go, wut time i'll come back, and where i am. U know wut? it's really sucks, can she just stop overthinking bout me?.
I want to be free but free in the right meaning and in the right way, i wish i could have wings like a bird. They could go anywhere they want, passing any obstacle but still can survive, watching nice view, get rest where they want and meet their friends and start to fly again. Huh, jadi adek is a fuckin bad luck. I want to manage my self with my way, i meant i dont mean i can do it alone but i really hate the way the care of me. Can they just support meor giving me a constructive advice? i dont need their fuckin loud voice at me, i dont need ceramahan mereka yang sometimes make me really want to kill 'em, i dont need that. Wut i need is only they could show me their love and careness, just simple as that.
Have you feel like wut i feel?? i want to explore my world and myself, i want to express myself but the fucking rules always stop me for doing this or that, it looks like rules always make someone get better but infact?? rules always making someone crazy, twill be different if peraturan yang dibuat itu menyenangkan dan tidak bersifat memaksa tapi it just impossible to find that kind of rules. Aku kadang merasa capek harus ngikutin peraturan yang ada, malah kadang peraturan yang dibuat really unreasonable. I just want to break the limits and then break rules in the right way.
Kadang aku feel jeaolous with my friends, cuz they can easily check in di path ke tempat-tempat nongkrong yang cozy and fun. And how about me?? i just stay at home that's is typically wut i do every friday night. I want to feel like going to diskotik, drink a glass of vodka, taste a ciggaret or doing somethin like a normal teenager did, thats all. Im human lho, when aku curhat sama temenku commentar mereka "sabar aja, lagian kamu kan masih muda masih butu pengawasan" oh darn!! useless ajalah cerita sama mereka, pengawasan like wut yang harus mereka lakukan?? watching me every single day?? or wut? really a typical story buat anak cewek ABG kaya aku, but are they blind?? dont they see im 16 and i can make perbedaan yang baik atau yang buruk, bedain mana yang sud i do or not, aku manusia normal yang masih butuh untuk menghirup udara segar dan plzzz sekali aja stop looking at me like that way (i meant menanggap aku anak umur 6 tahun, which can do anything. Im sleepy now, so see you i dont know when and where will meey. Have a nice holiday. byeeeeeeeeee.
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